mrsecretmind's Journal

First Entry
Well this is my livejournal. I had one about 2 years ago but I didn't keep up with it, and my old name reminds me of bad bad bad times. But anway....

I really wish I had friends right now that were unconditional. It seems like I really have to work at the friendships I have right now. When I was back home I had friends I could always depend on and I could get into stupid fights with and two minutes later we would hug and laugh and move on. Here at college, its all different. It feels like if my friends and I get into a fight there is no such thing as making up. It's awkward hanging out with them. There is no such thing as forgiving. I love these girls to death but I wish there was a way to just move on past fights, laugh at how stupid we are and just forgive and forget. But I don't know how to make that happen.

Some more of my complaints include that when I had friends back home, I could borrow anything of theirs and since I'm a responsible person I always returned it. No problemo. Well here if I borrow something, I get blamed for using that person. Well duh, I'm gonna wash it and return it brand new, but I guess no one believes me. I mean I haven't stolen a damn thing in my life and would find it very rude to not return something in better condition than when I borrowed it, but I guess I should drop this topic.

I'm really looking for a job right now. I mean it would be kick ass to work in a hunter/jumper barn or exercise ride rachorses, but I'm willing to accept that I'm probably not qualified enough at the moment to show up on day 1 and know how to do everything. So right now I think I may have to work as a groom, hotwalker or other. If you have any ideas PLEASE tell me!

Well this is enough typing for me on day 1, but maybe you will see me again soon. But here is what I want to accomplish in the next few days:
1) get astrid back into her HAPPY mood, i miss her like that (she's my bestest friend!)
2) Fill out the housing form....please remind me about this!
3) Find a job
4) Find an apartment

Adios!!

Ashley

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